Psalm 139 3-5: Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.For me life has been a mystery, why do some suffer even extremes and others seem to have it all together. As for myself I have to wonder why I have had to suffer with epilepsy and depression from my youth. Was it part of some divine plan? Or was it just fate? Life is hard, more specifically, everyday living is hard I have found no peace in pleasure seeking, nor escapism ( so easy to do with modern social media and movies). In fact when talking to a friend the other day, I they commented “ everything seems so futile” there is no lasting pleasure in even the noble pursuit of work.
I think that is absolutely right, Scripture tells us in Romans 8:20 “for the creation was subjected to futility, not voluntarily, but on account of the One who put it under subjection …”
All my life I had been taught in one form or another, that in order to get a reward, you have to perform, you have to achieve, in order to find favour with God and men. The gospel presented me with something else however, Romans 5:8 says “ But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us” It speaks to me of something that the Psalmist also says in Psalm 139:4 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me…..
I think the Psalmist also came to the conclusion that God indeed there is no escape from God and everything that has happened and will happen, in full view of God. There is nothing God does not see, not one thing that happens in all the created order that He is not aware off. This is the scope and Nature of Omnipresence to be “ Everywhere at the same time, in equal parts and with equal force.” In one way it is comforting to know that God sees and God cares, in another sense given our human sinfulness and frailty, it is terrifying. Who can understand it, God who made us, planned from eternity past and bought us to the very time and place we now occupy. This is a hard concept to grasp, especially for those who believe the self-help guru’s and those who say claim to be masters of their fate, what did Descartes say “ I am master of my ship and captain of my destiny” In the end I do not think he really believed that anymore, either. I like the verse from Ecclesiastes 7:13 Consider the work of God: for who can make that straight, which he hath made crooked?It explains a lot, it tells me that God makes and bends every man to His will, God will not bend to the will of man, and it has been said that unregenerated man will not bend even to the will of God. There is war between the unregenerate soul and its Creator, men will have it that they create themselves in their own image. Yet in all the history I have read I see men onl bent on destruction, their own and others. Men left to themselves are no recommendation to anybody. Romans 1 illustrates such a picture, Romans 1: “Because that which may be known of God is manifest in them; for God hath showed it unto them. For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse: Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools, And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things.Wherefore God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonour their own bodies between themselves”
There you have it for a man to remain in a state of spiritually dead state, all that really has to happen is that God has to let him alone, a man left to himself will self destruct in one form or another. But then we have this wonderful verse in Ephesians 1: 4 But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, 5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ….” There it is God is not a spectator in our human predicament, He is very much a partaker, in that God in the person of Jesus Christ became man, and tasted death for us all, why was this needful? Well for one as was mentioned, the souls of men in their natural state are at war with God, and He with them. God was wrathful because men consistently broke his commands and men persisted in breaking them. There seemed to no way repair the breach, in fact so much so that in all ancient stories there is no heaven. Ancient civilizations new nothing of a merciful God, all they knew were gods who demanded their very lives and gave nothing in return. But God, our God gave His only Son that we may be reconciled to God through His propitiary death for our sake. Being our substitute to save us from the just punishment due to us because of our incessant sin against each other and against God’s commands. We are reconciled by the blood of the divine Son of God. This mystery is too wonderful for me, it is my hope and my anchor, aside from this I have no hope.